Connections
How to disappear?
It's easy in the past.
No phones, no
internet.
Today, you realise we're basically connected via 3 channels.
Mobile phone,
MSN,
Facebook.
If a guy wants to know a girl, basically he will ask for any or all of the above.
Hence to disappear in this era, you just have to be inactive in all of the above.
You can still be staying in your home. Few people will remember your address anyway.
A friend just told me recently, that he is thinking of closing down his
MSN and
Facebook accounts, and changing his mobile number, so to disappear from his friends.
I told him, who hasn't thought of that before?
It is just so simple.
Or if it's just for one person.
Just delete him off your
MSN,
Facebook and phonebook.
Better still if he was never on them in the first place.
No information, no news.
You can pretend he doesn't exist.
Nobody would know anyway. Nobody would know if he is real.
So should I be thankful.
yat gor yan
11:06 PM
The Last OneCongratulations to
Shanny on her big day yesterday.
And really thank you for letting him be there. I know you would be the only person who would be willing to help me fulfil this.
Although it wasn't me who suggested it,
Shanny voiced it out herself. I didn't
deliberately sacrifice
Fenny.
Thanks for fulfilling this dream of mine. For him to be there, up there, sharing our joy. It has really made so much difference.
At least now, I have one regret less of that relationship.
Which unfortunately equates to one more painful memory.
Of course, thank you for turning up.
And for putting up the final show with me.
I asked a question. You didn't reply. You chose to remain silent. Not that I insisted to have my way.
It appears to me that you have nothing else to comment, and show no interest to hear anymore either.
Like the last time, I believe you have your reasons for letting go too.
Or perhaps, it would be the same reason.
Although it seems you thought it unnecessary to explain yourself.
I will not shamelessly cling on anymore either.
And I will not mention you anymore.
Not forgetting the mere mention of your name reminds me of the old slut at Plush calling out at you shamelessly.
I shouldn't have been there that day. To allow you to treat me like that. I
shouldn't have been a busybody and try to find out why were you so down and out. And at the end of the day, I still have no idea who/what went wrong. Was it even my fault that you treated me that way? But things became even more unhappy.
But at least I've proved that you can find someone if you really want to find that person.
I will not allow you to make me upset again. Cos to make me upset is not you. It's not you anymore. You wouldn't treat me like this in the past.
Cos I do not want to make those who truly care for me worry because of someone who does not.
离开我
陶晶莹
曲:袁惟仁词:袁惟仁
我把你的电话从手机里消除了
我把你的消息从话题里减少了
我把你的味道用香水喷掉了
我把你的照片用全家福挡住了
你让我的懂事变成一种幼稚
你让我的骄傲觉得很无知
你让我的朋友关心我的生活
你让我的软弱陪伴你的自由
离开我你会不会好一点
离开你什么事都难一点
车来了坐上你的明天
车走了我还站在路边
离开你你会不会好一点
离开你什么事都难一点
风来了云就会少一点
你走了我住在雨里面
yat gor yan
3:41 PM
Shanghai DollyI was very excited when I saw the invite.
I went to the gym in the late morning (which I will mention later) and then prepared to go to office.
Just as I was leaving the house, I saw letters addressed to me.
I opened them both. One was my credit card bill. The other was..
What was posted 2 entries before.
I gasped. Went back to my room. Changed. Brought along eye shadow and falsies.
haha..
So funny right.
My mother looked at me. She must be wondering what's wrong..
Eventually.
Of course. I didn't get to go.
I HATE it when I'd hoped so much, but didn't get it.
THE Ex-Boyfriend agreed to go with me.
But actually it was because his friends were going too, and asked him to go.
Promised to put me on guest list, so I don't have to queue.
Turned out?
He said he
wana go home already, when I got there at 9pm.
I persisted. I want to go in.
But he kept saying he want to go home already.
So.
Lao
niang said, "Then you go home
lor".
And walked away.
But actually it was really very crowded and packed le.. But he didn't explain himself properly so I didn't know also.
Lao
niang sulked for 1.5 hours.
Elex was in camp. Still working.
Obviously I can't call the other one cos I'm like trying hard to maintain peace and not quarrel now.
Yogi was attending his friend's funeral. But I was so self-centred I couldn't bring myself to send my condolences =(
And Chris, very unfortunately, chose to
SMS me at this time. I lost my temper, for the first time, at him. I've had enough of stress.
Heng I got hold of myself in time and didn't vent out on him.. Else
ar.. I don't know how to face someone...
On the way home, THE Ex-Boyfriend finally replied to my
SMS.
Yeah, and I've finally found the cause to vent my anger on.
Appreciate he didn't ignore me, like he always does.
Appreciate he lets me vent everything out.
I felt so much better already.
And I finally realise what's the one sentence that can pacify me..
"Don't be angry anymore k? I promise *blah blah blah*......"
heh.
"Sorry" doesn't work, unless you sing that song.
Appreciate that he NEVER hangs up on me.
Love it that he will always
SMS me after our phone conversation, before we fall asleep.
But of course, not mentioning all the hates
lah.
I think he reads my blog.
Because today, he mentioned "puppet" which was exactly what I wrote 5 entries before.
Anyway anyway, you know how I feel. It's still the same.
Went to the gym today.
As usual, planned to wake up at 9pm, but only managed 11am. =\
Went anyway. Nothing else to do also..
When I got there, saw a slim guy, looks very familiar.
Jovent! (that's my hairstylist)
And guess why is he there..
Training with Jay.. (my ex-trainer)
haha!
Kuku Jay still asked how come I knew they were training there today.
Duh. I just happened to be gym-
ming also
lah!
Machiam seeing old friends like that. Three of us yakked and yakked and yakked. Talking rubbish. Me disturbing and being mean to Jay. While both of them allie and bully me back.
Jay wanted me to let
Jovent use the treadmill, while I was still on it.
I told him, "Ask properly."
And the fella ignored me.
Jovent said, "
Wah. I never knew you so arrogant
ar."
I replied, "Of course
lah. In front of you where got dare to arrogant. Him, can bully
lah."
lol!
And then guess who we saw!!??
The Loser!
And then me and Jay kept giggling. Cos we always bitch about him one. And
Jovent we pretty clueless.
So we filled him in.
On the way out, he said, "No wonder he kept looking at you. Next time if I go gym, will he beat me up not?"
hahaha..
"That
siao kuku always keep looking at people one. Also always keep looking at Jay. Don't care about him
lah. Anyway you are bigger size than him
leh! And you have Jay, you scared
meh!"
Then he gave me a ride home.
I was looking for a Jaguar, until we reached an
SLK then he told me he was driving his
SLK today.
Whoa!
No wonder Jay was saying his car is small..
Seeing the three (yes three, including the
siao kuku who brings entertainment) guys already cheered me up slightly.
=)
yat gor yan
3:16 AM
